Determination Counts, Making Money at Home or Surviving the Slopes
Tuesday, December 16th, 2008Uh, no, I don’t.
“That’s okay, but it would be a help if you did” she says. I gulp and think: What have I gotten myself into? The lesson starts off pretty well. Once I know how to slide along on one foot and push with the other she directs me to the bunny hill. I’m feeling pretty confident, to tell the truth. What’s this? I think. I want a mountain! At the top of the bunny hill she explains the mechanics of snow boarding and without further ado; I launch myself from the top.
I careen out of control for about fifty feet or so (I may not know how to steer, but I’m having the time of my life!) before a seven year old tyke steps dead in front of me. The “how to stop” part of my recent lesson goes out the window; I hit the deck instead. That spares the wee child, but not my butt, which grinds a decent-sized furrow in the snow. That’s when I really understand that to get it right, I need to shelve my dignity for a while. I keep my ego going, though. I’ve always used it as fuel to keep going, because even if I look silly, I’d rather not give up. That’s the kind of person I am, and today, it sustains me through multiple wipeouts. Never give up. Never.
The view from the top is spectacular – and the only way to the bottom is down is on a slippery piece of lumber everyone is calls a “snowboard” – an alien appendage that’s strapped to both feet. There’s no fear. I just feel a bit . . . . weird. Confident, but weird.
I tighten the bindings, point the snowboard down, holler “Fore!” and away I go! Right away, I notice there’s more room for error than on the bunny hill. The snow is a lot fluffier, which should cushion my falls. Things are going great!
I swoosh along, go around a corner and all of the sudden, the run narrows up, big time. So much for having room for error! There’s a tall timber on my left and a rough rock wall on my right. Suddenly, the mechanics of turning become really, really important to remember. I slide through the narrow spot and in front of me the view is great – but the snow’s running out. I’m hitting the end of the slope.
When I drop over the edge, my first thought is that the nice young lady who taught me might have a sadistic streak in her.
It was steep, steep, steep! In order to get down I have to do something that feels like it violates what I thought were the laws of physics: lean ahead to control my rate of decent. Trust me when I say that it takes a lot of discipline to lean forward when you’re sliding down a mountain.
When I hit the bottom (and live!), my instructor says that normally she’d take beginners down a gentler slope the first time down the mountain, but since I was quick learner and doing so well, she decided that I needed more of a challenge. Well, that gives me a shot of emotional fuel (remember my ego?) and I head back to the top, again and again.
I finally had to quit when the muscles in my legs were burning so bad, I could hardly stand. That evening when I was in the hot tub, feeling sore, but mighty fine about what I’d accomplished, I realized that if you want to do something bad enough, you need more than raw determination. You must believe that failure isn’t in your personal dictionary. You may fall again and again. The snow and the cold are bitter, but success is so very, very sweet.
P.S. I had taken my camera along to take some pictures for posterity, but even though it was in the front pocket of my ski pants I killed it on one of my more spectacular wipeouts. It turned out to be the only casualty.